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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

09.06.2025 14:05

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

So whats the point in blame.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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He knew the spot.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

My life is so biszare .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Why did i forgive my father ?

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

And i lived it daily.

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I think the readers, may guess!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Why does my sister want to have sex with me? What should I do?

I never cut or harmed myself..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Ive learnt so much.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

So, i spoilt her more .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

One cannot live in the past .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

We were not on the streets..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Who then, do I blame.?

She found it foreign!.

She loved him until the end.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was 9 years of age.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

As i do to all so called friends.?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Put me off passion for life!!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I was very sick at this time too.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I waited trembling.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

What did i know ?

All the time i was locked up.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Was to survive, this bastard.

Would this be the day?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Comes on , in middle age.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I said to her

She married twice! .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I couldn’t, believe it.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My family never makes their pension either.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

When she asked me how she looked .

Im still living with it.

She was in good health!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I was scared of men, in general

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But ive been too sick for many years..

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I write beautiful poetry .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was seconnd youngest,

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I have no regrets .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But it wasn’t much.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But, we were locked up after school.

I don,t even have a pension.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We all went to grammer schools

I will be 64.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

It was going to be , some day.

She wouldn,t have been !

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

(And it was in our own minds.)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

This is soul school!.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,